Spider Webs

In case you were wondering, yes I took this picture and I am very proud of it! Do you know how hard it is to take a picture of a spider web? I have recently become very fond of photography and this morning I saw this and had to snap a shot. And of course, as almost everything does, it made me think of infertility. I will try to explain myself. I had my very first IUI done on Monday and ever since then I have been thinking about this delicate process that may or may not be going on in my body. It is very intricate much like this spider web....all the pieces have to fit together for it to be strong. I cannot stop thinking about the IUI. I think about it every day. Like I said in a prior post....I don't know how I am going to handle a IUI BFN. I am assuming that it is going to be harder than a clomid BFN.

So, about the IUI. It went well and was not nearly as bad as I was expecting it to be. There was a little cramping and pressure, and at one point some pain, but nothing that I couldn't handle. After it was over and we were in the car driving home my DH says to me "I kinda gotta taste of what its going to be like when your pregnant....you laying on the table and me holding your hand" I thought it was sweet :) I know that he is thinking about it a lot too. He keeps bringing it up at the weirdest times. As we sat in the room together with our little swimmers in a vial, we couldn't help but think that our baby could be in there....just waiting for a perfect little egg to snuggle into. It was crazy to see them just sitting there. My DH didn't want to come in the room at first but we made a deal....I would take his sample in and he would be in the room with me. I am pretty sure that he was glad that he was in there for that moment. After it was all said and done, I kept thinking about what could possibly going on in my body....it was kind of a weird feeling! I am still thinking about it on a daily basis.....is my body making a baby right now??? Let's hope! Only 11 more days to go before I can test! Its going to be a long 11 days!