WOW, its been a while

I once again have neglected my poor little blog. It just seems like since the IUI things have gotten crazy and I haven't had the time to update. As I am sure you are probably assuming, the IUI didn't work. I guess going into it I pretty much knew it wasn't going to work since it was with my OBGYN and not a specialist. They never checked his numbers, never checked me, and then said that it was just a shot in the dark. I was very disappointed and didn't really get my hopes up. So, at this point we are on a break for about 3 months. I have decided to try and get myself back in shape and healthy in hopes that maybe it will help.

I will admit that it has been kinda nice not having to worry about what CD I am on or how my DPO I am. It just feels good to not have to think about infertility all the time. I don't want infertility to be my life....it is not who I am or what defines me as a woman. It is a medical condition that both myself and my husband are dealing with. I don't think infertility is a bad word or a scarlet letter, I don't think it is shameful or embarrassing, but I also don't think that it needs to be a reminder to me everyday. I am made up of more than just the fact that we are "infertile". This is something that I felt needed to be said and it has been bothering me for a day or so. So, I said what I needed to say (although there a few other things I could probably say) and I am done for now. I'm sure by now anyone reading this is wondering why I chose to say this and what the heck happened. Maybe I will discuss it later but for now my lips are sealed.