And let the wait begin....

So, I have been the laziest person when it comes to updating my blog.....you would think as much time as I have on my hands that I would be better at this. I took my first round of Clomid this month and bought several OPK's. The doctor started me out on 50mg. I was so nervous about taking it. I have read some people get horrible side effects from it. All in all it went pretty well. I had a few moments of the "clomid crazies" and some headaches but not bad at all. And after getting two days worth of positive OPK's, it is now time to just sit back and wait. We have done all we can do at this point....I guess in about two weeks we will know if it worked or not. I go in for another progesterone blood draw on the 23rd which is CD22.

When I first got my prescription for the Clomid, I started having second thoughts.....I looked around the house and at my husband and dog and realized that having a baby in the house was going to completely change our lives. Obviously I have always known this but it just kind of hit me at that moment. I started to think that maybe we should wait....maybe there is a reason why it has taken so long to get to this point. I talked to a friend about how I was feeling and they agreed that it is completely normal. I want a baby more than anything....I can't even imagine someone calling me Mom. One thing I have to remember though is to not get my hopes to high. I have been reading baby name books, looking at nurseries, talking about labor, looking at birth photographers....the list goes on and on. I am so scared that if this doesn't work this month that I am going to be a mess. For some reason though, I know it is going to. I feel like this is it....I have never felt this way before. It could be because we are finally getting somewhere in our treatment. Who knows, lets just pray that I don't have to update this in 2 weeks with bad news.

I have decided that I am going to try and start writing daily. Just to talk about whatever is on my mind. I am sure there is no one who reads this but it makes me feel better to get my thoughts out. So, if you are reading this....Thank you! I hope that my blog in some way helps someone feel like they are not alone in this crazy world of IF.